Dear God

Dear God,

It's been a while since I've written you a letter I think I remember the where and for what reason a long time ago sitting on my bare and lonely kitchen floor contemplating my future, I wrote a long letter but had nowhere to send it to so I hung onto it for a while then lost it with the many other things I've lost over time, it was written as honest as I could be on a yellow lined piece of paper, I didn't beg your forgiveness, I didn't ask for possessions, I asked you to follow me in my life to help me be a better person because at the time I wasn't sure if I was or wasn't, I asked you to help me find a life worth living for and you listened, you gave me a high five, you watched my progression and whenever I was going down the wrong path you showed your presence even though I sometimes did not listen or acknowledge the forgiveness inside of you, over the years we have talked some and I even let you go for a while, basking in my own arrogant life, I do still enjoy our conversations when we have them even though at times heavier than others and sometimes I lapse in judgment yet everything we say to one another is real and I know you know always what I am thinking and you don't judge me even when I'm the misjuding one or when my thoughts aren't the complete truth you know I'm only undoing what I do, you enter into my dreams your light and into the smallest of moments in spite of myself you know they are what I treasure most, and you are always kind because you see me for me and acknowledge the spirituality inside not pure, hardly perfect, lacking trust, challenging faith, filled with love and needing compassion, we both know who me is don't we, so once again I thank you for staying close and never quite letting go.  Thanks for the numbers that was very kind, don't know what they mean or how they will affect todayor tomorrow but you sent them and they are mine and I am filled with appreciation.
xoxo